one of those things…

my baby needs to know that when vanilla tints my senses I fall in love with a sliver of chocolate
he says when I get weird, I use sex to control the fucked up moment
it doesn’t seem fucked up when you have had a good life with two cars, one parent fucking her or his therapist
or maybe they just both died
we get mad and I get so upset
people always used to say get on these drugs…
they have told me that since I was five