beginning of something not yet realized

So far this new year has brought the ocean as well as a dash of eucalyptus
Stress is bleeding but I still cling to it because it is all am used too
The ocean is two blocks from our doorstep leaking through our one window
We have one more month it seems like it is taking forever because it really is
The stress marks are all over my body my face and fingers biting down on flesh
So far this new year I have not cried over something lost beyond my control